A day in a Mom’s life

You don’t take a class; you’re thrown into motherhood and learn from experience.
— Jennie Finch

Hi everyone! I’m Laura Sailele. I’m the mom of one crazy toddler. The purpose of this blog is to share my motherhood journey – sharing the good, the bad, and the ugly. I introduce myself so you will so you can get to know me a little bit more.

I was born and raised in Mexico City and I decided to move to Utah to go to collage. I moved to the U.S. back in 2016 and it’s been a roller coaster. I enjoy living in this country, as it has allowed me to be more independent, meet new people, try new things and much more.

I became a mom in the summer of 2018, so now my daughter is a year and a half. It’s crazy how time flies! I still think she was a newborn last week, but even though she’s growing so fast, she will forever be my baby girl.

Motherhood has been an interesting journey. I became a mom when I was almost 21, and I would like to consider myself a “young mom”. My pregnancy was good, I didn’t get too bad of morning sickness or crazy cravings, it was overall, a really healthy pregnancy. Then, my labor and delivery were awesome, such an beautiful, unique experience.

Nae Nae was born right after midnight and she had (still has) the most beautiful, long eyelashes. I remember just staring at her and being so grateful and shocked at the same time. I just kept thinking “Did I just do that?” Our bodies are so awesome.

Everyone in mine and my husband’s family were so excited for our little baby. It was a dream come true to be able to finally hold her in my arms. I wanted to enjoy the newborn stage so much, I kept trying to be happy but I just felt so tired. I thought that because I was a new mom I wasn’t really myself but in reality I was suffering from postpartum depression.

Postpartum depression is very real, and I feel that now it’s something that has been talked more and more. It was very hard for be to accept that I had it, however, I’m happy that I was able to speak up to my husband and my doctor because that’s how I got help.

The beginning of my motherhood journey has rough and so challenging and I would like to reach to others out there that may be going through the same situation.

I think my next post will be explaining more about my postpartum depression, how I got diagnosed, the treatment I had, and how motherhood has been after overcoming it.

Thanks for making it to the end of this post!

Love,

Laura S. ❤

Postpartum Depression is something that I knew about but would’ve never thought I would have. While I was pregnant, I watched a bunch of YouTube videos and read different books about the so called “4^th trimester”. I wanted to be as prepared as I can for life with a newborn, learn from others experiences and be ready for what was to come. However, nothing can really prepare you for those early days of motherhood. Still, Nae Nae is about to turn 2 soon and I still feel like I don’t know what I’m doing sometimes.

After having her, I had the “baby blues”, which is quite normal, but they just didn’t go away. But I didn’t realize that. I just kept feeling so sad, anxious, overwhelmed about everything. I wouldn’t sleep because I thought, what if something happens to her? What if she stops breathing? I was so exhausted and just kept feeling like I wasn’t me. I kept crying, everything made me cry. My husband tried to help, he tried to talk to me, but I was in such a bad mood all the time. I was too scared to leave the house with a newborn. I feared everything outside of my home.

Then, my six-week check-up came, and I just remember mentioning something to the nurse and then she kept asking more questions and I busted out in tears. They knew. They made me fill a survey about mental health and I made an appointment with the therapist that week.

I felt ashamed, I didn’t want anyone to know. After my first appointment with the therapist, her and my doctor decided to put me in a low dose of antidepressants. I felt devastated. I didn’t want to accept that I was going through this.

I remember first, having therapy once a week. Then, after a month and a half I started going once, until eventually I went once every month. I was off the antidepressants after 6 months. It was all a life changing experience.

Now, looking back, I’m so grateful for my doctor and my therapist. They were great and were able to notice it in the “early” stages. I accept that I didn’t want to be depressed. There are so many changes happening in a woman’s body after delivering a baby that you can’t control anything about it. I wish PPD is something that women aren’t ashamed to talk about. It happens, but you can get through it.

Being a new mother is so challenging. It is like being in a rollercoaster, but it gets better after some time. I am so happy being with my baby girl, she’s a toddler now but she will always be my baby. I love my little family with all my heart.

Thanks for reading this! Hope it can help at least someone out there.

xo L.

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